Sorry, Dad

I don't mean to be such a disappointment to you. It's not like I want to be a failure. You act like I don't try though. I do try so just imagine how much more it hurts when you give me talks about being a failure. They're not even pep talks. You reprimand me for being such a disappointment. I'm sorry I'm not as smart or successful as your siblings kids. I'm sorry I'm such a burden to you. You have to watch me fail over and over again. And you do try to love me. My failures just make it hard for you. I know you try not to say anything but I know what you think. I'm sorry I can't live up to anything. As I said previously, if I were dead I wouldn't be a burden to you.